your lovee.

i dont know what it is but its something about you that gives me butterflys. its something about the way you are and how you handle yourself; how you handle your own. i try not to pay attention to you; but once you walk my way ; its like i get all shy and giggly. its like at night i lay on my bed and just let my thoughts go crazy about you, it makes me smile when i see you. boy you the illest ! lol dangg,, writing about you gets me all giggly and smiling all over again. idk what it is but you got me wantin that number 1 spot in your heart. smileyface. i know this is REALLY short but it isnt even the start of how you really make me feel . . . haha

Makin myself somebody.

Havent been writtin for awhile. Been reminiscing on the past, which i know i shouldnt but i have been for some weird reason. Life has been getting a harder and with that more obsticles coming my way, people, family and all those people always doubting and not believing in me. But I know ill make it BIG sooner or later but i WILL. Like everyone knows DANCING is WHO I AM.. and cant NOBODY stop me from doing what i love and becoming SOMEBODY in life. But other than that.. to the people who doubt me, to the people who dont believe in me, to the haterz and all those other people who try and look down on me.. you know what.... Ive already made it BIG you just dont know it yet. And not trying to have this sound cocky in ANYWAY possible but when i make it , all those people goin to be hating even more. lol. Ill appreciate those who have mattered and bothered to stick around and just let go of those who didnt want to stick around anymore. Blessings come with patience. ~One love.~

DREAMiNG 0R REALity?...

How nice would it be to sleep next to him. No more lonely nights with tossin' and turnin', not being able to sleep. He'll be there to keep ME from tossin cause, He'll wrap ME in his arms, He'll keep ME warm, He'll make ME feel safe, He'll make ME feel wanted, He'll treat ME so gentle and special, He'll take care of ME like a porcelan doll thats one of a kind, hard to find and a once in a life time chance to hold and keep safe. He'll look ME deep in MY eyes and kiss ME on my forhead, then my nose, and then gently on my lips. He'll look at me and say "baby, I love YOU, And I MEAN it." Then pull out a rose and slide it down my cheek then down my neck. Then I'll kiss him back and say the same thing. Then I'll rest my head on his chest while he plays with my hair untill I fall asleep, and all I'll hear is his whisper in my ear saying, "sweet dreams baby." But when I wake up, It's really my pillow I was laying on the whole time, and the words were just all in my head.

MUSiC F0R L0VE.

The way music soothes through my head and mixes my thoughts, feelings, emotions, geastures, is just such an incredible feeling. Its not me moving, but the music that travels through my body which helps me move in all these different ways i NEVER thought i could. Im not saying Im an expert, but I can flow to the best of my ability. Without music, It feels like a little kid lost in the world by themself. When I do have music, it feels like I can conquor ANYTHING. I believe that music, and dance especially has been flowing through my veins since I was born. Dance is such a beautiful gift that not very many people have, I like to think that having this gift is an honor and a privallige that will take me beyond my limits. They tell me 'sky is the limit' but naw, mines is O-U-T-E-R-S-P-A-C-E!!!

freedom..

Why am i being kept IN when all i want is to be let OUT?! Out in the world there are SOO many things i can learn from, SOO many opportunities i can learn from or do. There are alot of new open doors i can go through but im being kept in this CELL , knowing i can be someone GREAT out in the world and make a DIFFERENCE. i need to be able to make mistakes and learn from them so when its about to happen i can stop it from happening. Then again, it seems that i am being tought how to live my life step by step without me being able to LIVE it on my OWN. I know that all this stress, pain, eagerness for some reason to be FREE will lead to un-neccesary consequences that i dont want to cause damage and pain to those loved ones i have. But i can sometimes FEEL the freedom so close to me ; my soul flowing with the wind , my smile re-unitting with the sun and my spirit dancing with the WIDE OPEN AREAS. lol ; this is just only the feeling in my DREAMS.

my intro.

welll im new to this whole blogspot crap. haha. yea welll.... i like writing and DANCING is my biggest passion in the W0RLD! lol. but yea... ummm. ill write more later...